Friday, April 2, 2010

Your Grace is Enough

I never really understood the meaning of Grace until our journey with Serenity. In an online dictionary it's defined as..."the influence or spirit of God operating in humans to regenerate or strengthen them." But to fully understand, you must experience His grace firsthand.

Just as you must also experience a PICU before you can truly understand it's depressing nature. In that area of a hospital, two large metal doors separate two completely different worlds. On one side, there is normalcy. There are blue skies and butterflies, birthday cakes and laughter. Then in an instant you walk through those large metal doors and everything changes. Skies turn gray, butterflies disappear. Birthday cakes are left untouched and laughter, not only fades, but it ceases to exist. Moments are filled with tears. Helpless cries from desperate mothers fill the air. Expressions begin to vanish. The majority fear to feel anything, for if they feel something, than they are sure to feel pain.

The PICU is a walk into a world of depression and the wonderful dedicated nurses of this unit experience this world on a daily basis. I'm sure if you were to ask one of them, most would admit that they love their job, but they would also admit that they do have their moments... many, many moments, when they long for a better atmosphere. I know this, because those same nurses use to fight over our room assignment. They all wanted to work in our atmosphere. We were the topic of many discussions. My husband was always cracking jokes. Even the most professional staff members couldn't keep a straight face once they entered our room. We were friendly. We were hopeful. We were joyful, because we were confident. We had our fair share of tears, but we had more than our fair share of laughter. Our room stood out to the entire staff. There was something different about us and everyone wanted to be a part of our world. People were drawn to the very thing that gave us our strength. They were drawn to a world where laughter could exist once more. They were drawn to the Spirit of God which surrounded us! They wondered why we were so different. They knew, it wasn't because we cared any less than the other parents. We just had something that they desperately needed, but didn't know how to obtain.
We had God's Grace to carry us through.

About a month ago, I had a dream... My family was driving down a street in our home town. We were enjoying the ride, smiling and having fun. Suddenly a storm hit. The sky became dark and funnel clouds started to form. I called out to my husband who was behind the wheel and insisted that he take us home. He sped up the car... a funnel cloud touched down directly in front of us. He slammed on the brakes. I called out... "Back up, Back up!" He put the car in reverse. A funnel cloud touched down directly behind us. I called out.. "Turn right." Several funnels clouds surrounded us on the right. I called out.."Go left." Both of our hearts sank when three more funnels clouds touch the ground on our left. We were completely surrounded by many powerful tornadoes. There was no where left to go. We were stuck in the midst of a powerful storm. The tornadoes on our left started to grow and quickly began to approach us. I turned around and glanced at my five small children buckled in the backseat. Instinct told me to get everyone out of the car and into a ditch, but in my dream there wasn't enough time. With no other alternative, I told my family to brace themselves. I could see the powerful storm. It was uprooting trees, demolishing houses and everything within it's path. Debris was flying through the air. The storm leveled everything near and it was heading straight for us. I grabbed my husband's hand, closed my eyes and started to pray. Several seconds went by. The tornado should have hit our car. I slowly opened my eyes to see... dirt, trees, dark wind flying all around us. My husband opened his eyes. He looked around, then at me. Both of our mouths dropped in amazement. We are in the very center of a tornado. There was no sound, There was no movement. Our car was completely motionless. It didn't even rock with the wind. The tornado passed to the other side...still no movement... still no sound. My children looked up, and wandered what all the fuss was about. My husband started the car and we drove away.. utterly untouched by the disaster around us.

A thousand may fall at your side, And ten thousand at your right hand; But it shall not come near you. Psalms 91:7

When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they will not over overflow you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be scorched, nor will the flame burn you. For I am the Lord your God, The Holy One of Israel, your Savior.
Isaiah 43: 2-3

I awakened and remembered our journey with Serenity. This is how grace is defined.. In this life there will be storms. There will be LOTS of storms. Storms that seem impossible. Moments that seem hopeless, but as long as we focus our eyes on Jesus, we can weather ANY storm. By the Grace of God, we can come through victorious, dry as a bone, completely untouched and not even feel the wind!

That's the power of His Grace...
No matter what lies within our path.. as long as we place our trust in You oh Lord. Your Grace is MORE than enough!

"Therefore, having been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom also we have access by faith into this grace in which we stand, and rejoice in hope of the glory of God.
Romans 5:1-2

"And He said to me, “My grace is enough for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness...”
2 Corinthians 12:9